My story

Letting go

To all appearances I had life very well sorted, a nice job with ditto prospects, a beautiful house and a flash lease car. However, from the age of eighteen, I had been struggling with chronic fatigue and I was troubled by a constantly nagging inner voice that life surely would have more to offer than this. Until a consultant told me I did not know who I was and that my chronic fatigue was a sign that my life was in need of a change of course. I started on a search for the answer to the question what I wanted to do with my life? The outcome was profoundedly life changing, as I ended my marriage, sold the house and quit my my job. I started to meditate, learned to perceive auras and even began to channel, to speak with entities in the energetic world. My old life of commerce and a career fell further and further away. When, together with my current husband Wim Bierman, I began to study healing at Barbara Brennan in the Unites States and started Soulstation, a consultancy for personal development in the corporate world, I believed I had found my path. But I remained chronically tired.

Search for healing

Driven by an intense desire to find a cure for my condition, I continued to explore the origins of illness and health. Since mainstream medicine couldn’t help me (they couldn’t find a physiological cause for my illness) I turned to complementary and alternative medicine. I read books, attended study programmes and experimented with treatment methods in the field of, among other things, psychotherapy, voice dialogue, healing, homeopathy, orthomolecular therapy, manual therapy, meditation, body work, raw food, detox and constellation therapy. I was my own guinea pig and learned by trial and error. My healing occurred in stages. An important breakthrough came in 2002 after treatment with snake venom, a homeopathic remedy which I took under the supervision of a naturopath. For the first time in twenty years I reached an energy level with which I could lead a reasonably normal life. But the real breakthrough came after my psyche released the first fragments of traumatic childhood memories.This event left me prostrate with the symptoms of Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder. One thing I knew for certain, I didn’t want medication, I wanted to heal. After two years of intensive therapy, I regained what I now see was the first, still fragile beginning of a new balance. Then I finally started to write, something my guides had been advising me for years.

The harvest

Over the years, as I processed my traumas, my creativity gradually started flowing. I opened the moving boxes of painting materials that I had dragged unused all my life from the attic of one house to the next, and started painting. My sweetheart gave me a painting workshop for my 50th birthday, after which I went to art academy. For ten years I studied on and off with various teachers and, in addition to facilitating workshops and teaching, I worked in my own studio. One day I stood behind my easel and realised in every fiber of my body: this is it! This is what I came for! Now that the next generation is ready to pass on the Multidimensional Constellation method I developed and my new studio is ready, it is time. Time to follow that deep desire and continue as a professional artist.

P.S. Are you interested in how I healed from CFS/ME and PTSD, got healthy again and found my creativity? You can read my story in the trilogy 'Letters from my soul'.


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